I thought I knew but obviously I was so wrong.

I left Gcuts today:( I feel so sad that I'm leaving my friends. I'm gonna miss them dearly. Its so hard to leave but it has to be done anyways. Its like I never wanna leave when at the time I have close friends like Marianne, Jonathan, MJ, Anna, Donald, Adrian, Nicole and especially, Kim. I'm really gonna miss them. :( Its like nobody was willing to let go of me. I felt so touched that they feel like im so special to them. Anyways, its not like I'm not coming back. This is only temporary.

On the other note, this bunch of friends that I have here, is so dear to me that its so hard for them to accept my departure. awwh how sweet. Gosh i have a tear now. :((
I'll treasure them with all my heart. I love you guys so much! You guys always made my day whenever I'm sad. Thanks! <3> during Elson's last day

KIM, the guy who really cares
eventhough sometimes he's a brat.


ELSON, he helps alot although
he's kinda playful at times.


ANNE, she's one of kind, totally gets
me and we're always on the same page.
JONATHAN, the guys who always
cracks me up no matter what.


MELVIN JOHN @ M.J, the baby amongst all of us.
can be an ass sometimes but he's a good boy.

you smell like my future boyfriend?

the sun's up, you're still here.

somethings been bothering me lately. one problem at a time. thats how it is. i need my sleep so bad. there was one time i was so tired i went to bed, then ar ound 4-5am i suddenly woke up. i was sweating and shivering. i thought i was imagining things but im not. it happened quite often and that scares the hell out of me. i just didnt how to deal with it. i told my mum about it, she said that im thinking too much. yeah probably i am. no big deal, thats what i thought. after waking up almost everyday at 4am, then i started having deja vu. i dont get deja vu that often though. once in a bluemoon. and im thinking "holy shit! whats going on?" and everytime i get deja vu i'll scream/yell suddenly. i dont know. i have the urge to do so. its so weird. but maybe that doesnt mean anything. probably like my mom said, im thinking too much. but im pretty sure there's something weird going on. i try to not think too much of it. and sometimes during class, i can daydream even when someone's talking to me! thats so not me! i have a bad feeling about this. :(


and during that time, how i wished someone was beside me, comforting me, making me warm & let me know everything's gonna be fine. and i got nothing to worry about. :( i told one of my friend about it, she told to go see a doctor. maybe i need sleeping pills to calm my nerves. i know im not crazy but i obviously know what's going on with me. but as soon as the waking up is over, im thinking maybe im just scared of being left alone. being replaced for someone new. getting dumped. maybe thats just it. i think too much that i didnt realise it was right infront of me. so much for knight and shining armour. xx


P/S: I'm missing someone at the moment. :p

blah?

i like the smell of coffee in the morning. i like the smell of rain & soil. i like the smell of green tea. i like the smell of my grandma's cooking. i like my hair when its messy. i like it when i have lotsa money. i like the smell of new books. i like to play in the rain. i like to hug my girlfriends. i like it when my mom wakes me up. i like it when my dad's thinks of me as his little girl. i like it when daniel says im his happiness. i like it when people always puts a smile on my face. i like it when i know what im doing. i like the group picture we all have. i like my pink ipod. i like texting. i like it when my classmates thinks im fun, crazy &awesome. i like it when the musics too loud. i like to wear a shirt that emphasise my boobs;p. i like to camwhore. i like to sleep wihout any disturbance. i like it when cute guys passed by or suddenly appear on tv.

to keep going on some more takes time. i like everything thats even existed to be like:)

bitch oh bitch. you're so pathetic. ex oh ex oh

lets be selfish, shall we?

baca newspaper terbalik. pintar kan?
at my aunts house at signal hill.
kissy kissy. this was at gcuts

sylvia took this!


basar kan mata sa? i tried so hard!
trying to be cute, obviously

i don't understand why. SHIT

okay, here's the thing. I don't wanna sound like I'm rude or anything, but if someone you know said very hurtful things to you repeatedly when they know its hurtful, how would you feel?
if you ask me, i'd feel like an ass and upset ofcourse. I won't reveal the person's name because the person is to dumb to understand WHAT THE FUCK im saying. as simple as that. but who cares right, i dont care if your dad's the king, your mom's my mom's bestfriend, or my FRIEND. I really don't get it though. Or am I losing my mind here?

so its true what they say " while you seek new friendships, take care to cultivate the old ".
its so true! anyways, like i said I don't care if you're daddy's little girl or princess or whatvever! I don't give a damn! okay? GOSH. I can't wait to finish.

go study your manners bitch.

model model.

well as the title says; yes im gonna be a model! for hair that is. :)

feels weird but im up for it. heheh okayy anyways, im craving for icecream right now! ;p

like suddenly in the middle of the night. how weird is that? :S

i need a hug :( so baaaad. im like a loner right now. thats so sad, yeah i know. GODDDD.

the guys in class always make fun of me but yeah who cares! im gonna finish soon bah!
lama lagi kamu! but still im gonna miss them heaaapps! walaupun durg like an ass sometimes.

MISS MISS! :(

I miss you! miss! miss! miss! miss! miss! miss! miss! miss! miss! miss! miss!

like alot of miss that one can miss. MISS! okay thats alot of miss :)

anyways, watched XMEN ORIGINS : Wolverine last night. I wanna watch again. And again and again.

I love my flipflops. Love it like a girl loves chocolates, muffins, icecreams, makeups & boys. <3

but but.. its all dirty now :( reminds me of him!

I ate popcorn for breakfast today. How healthy was that?

ting tong! okay i go first mama cita. bye bye and thank you : D


xoxo.

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